endo yg bz....

feel like org yg da keje...8-10 class, then 10-5 lab..

let me expose wut i'm doing within dat hours..

8-10 (usually)- class...most of sec n min of tyme i was blurred...quite disappointed with myself....urghh...sumtyme, i feel like there are lacking or sumthing wrong with my brain...
10-12- lab...stat my routine.. bukak loker, pki lab coat...bukak drawer workstation...switch on all sume suiz yg ade.....oh, before dat, pki glove n mask..huhu...protection...then stat da work..project...n not to forget, have to cop da doc...wut make me sick n quite bored are da queue for da doc...just dis small thing sumtyme can make chaos...it reminds me abt da cop2 thing during nk mandi kt asrama dlu....even da bsr pon still experience dis kind of stuff...huhuhu....

ptg...around kul 5ley baru dpt melepak2 kn bdn kt katil...dis is da moment dat i like da most in every single of day...at dis moment, i want, just 4 5-10 min, 4get abt da stress.... :)

when bz, i feel it's not fair for myself...so, i need 2 reward myself by eating n watching my fav story...n those are without sedar indirectly steal my precious time dat need to be used for PRO!! but, can't stop to do so..need some1 xtually to motivate me...although, outside, or physically, people might see me as a tough person...no...i am not....i realized sumtyme i was a big liar...wut i say, is not wut i am..i know, but i'm not doing it...i realized it was not right, but still doing it....know dat i need to change, but dont know how or when to start...

still can't find sum1 dat i feel can hear wut i want to say....please...come to my life...

hidup: mcm2 rase ade

ptg jumaat ni tegerak hati nk bkk blog. xtaw la mebi sbb xelok study time senja2 nk maghrib cmni. padahal, byk je lg xstudy..bile tggl 3 hari nk exam ni..mcm2 rase ade...lg2 kalo xabes kaver chapter lg..sem ni tkr prinsip cket..biar xabes..asalkn phm..tp kalo bole abeskn..ape lg...kne la marathon dlm 2/3 hari ni...nk wat cmne..da naseb bdn...berbalik pd mcm2 rase td....memg mcm2 pon..rase nk mkn mcm2...nk mkn kebab kt pkns la...nk mkn mknn korea la...nk mkn nasi ayam penyet la..haila...tp, rase je lbey..begi nye tak..lg..rase nk balik umah..sbb kt umah mcm2 leh mkn...kalo umah tu berasap la..tp memg slalu berasap la...teringt asam pds mak..walaupon pki ikan cikai2 je...kuahnye ttp abes licin...rase nk abeskn paper ni cpt pon ade..rase takot lg la ade...tp sbnrnye, programme yg aku amek ni, exam die memg cket je...tp chapter yg nk kne kaver..memg la byk..di setiap penghujung semester, mesti akan terckp dlm hati ni...byk nye la nk kne bce..kalo amek kos len ni, mesti leh score..hah..yela tu...tgok kwn2 seangkatan mse diploma dlu...mcm lbey kurg je suffer nye...tp ak ske care diorg blaja n timing...mcm diploma dlu...kire nye, ak leh gak gne strategi mse dip dlu..tp bile msuk prog ni, cm rase xjmpe lg care blaja yg berkesan...actually, i need some motivation,...walaupon dlm kate2 dr.fazilah kamsah ckp golongan bulan yg lahir bln 5 ni bole memotivasikan diri sendiri...aku akui tu sbb ak ni memg agak indipendent la...rase...nk abeskn blaja ni cpt memg slalu ade...rase nk keje cpt, dpt duet...rase nk disayangi org yg disayangi...except family la..rase nk melancong ke seluruh dunia...bukit bukau yg cantik kt new zealand,

cantik kn tmpt ni....^^

                                                     
bunga sakura ngan sushi n tempura kt jepun,

sushi...mmm..sdp..

sakura..bestnye kalo dpt berjalan2 kt bwh ni....

pulau jeju kt korea,

jeju island

bunga tulip yg cantik2 kt uk,

cantiknye......

miracle kaabah dan tmpt2 peninggalan Rasulullah saw kt  mekah,

kaabah

so, hopefully pas blaja ade mse tuk lakukan sume2 tu...nk explore dulu dunia ni...menikmati alam, makanan yg sdp2...ni la slh satu care nk pujuk dan motivasi diri...betul x??...
kla, smpi cni je kot...nk study la....daaa~ ^^

blogging again

feel quite lonely rite now....i have just called home....but my mom not there...she's in last "marhabban".

my mom...ica..n erin,,

but never mind..i've talked to my sis n dear little ica...there are a few things that disturb my mind...making a factory in my brain...n sometime it seems like a person talking to me n giving me advice n opinion. what else should i do to stop them...hm...so, i make up my mind....let's have a movie. &...i decide Pandorum, but then it makes my sympathetic innervation raise...haha...quite interesting story but also more on futuristic...in the begining of the story...when i read at the "muqadimah" of that Pandorum..i started to self myself that watch this thing for fun..but, we must believe our Creator. Allah The Almighty. yeah,...its about the story of person in the future and the new planet like earth-Tanis. still remind in ourselve not to believe that..who make the film??? of course not a muslim.

hm...eating an apple with hot choc makes me feel better...talk abt eat, my mentor this evening said that i've gain weight....i like to hear that..but also feel bad..because after this i need to do some exercise...coz i've increase my appetite n so that..if effort not taken...it will lead me to unhappy shape....huhuhu...exercise..exercise.....exercise....

ok2.....enough for now...^^

wut 2 share ar?? hm...

di pagi yg sunyi ni...dikala perutku meragam slps dberi reward chicken chop...adehhh...haila perutku syg....ok...ape yg nk dceritakan kt cni eh...

puase dah...raye pon dah....DMT modul pon dah...tggu tuk endocrine lak....tmbh lg la nota yg perlu dkaver tuk pro exam medical nt...haila.....tarapapa...bak kate amir khan dlm 3 idiots "all is well"..okla pkcik amir ku syg~ da la mke cm 1st pkwe mse skola rndh dlu...lalala~^^

ade bbrpe persoalan yg nk di sharekn kt cni....jeng jeng jeng.....

korg rase kn...restoran yg korg duk g mkn n minum tu, halal x? betul x tanda halal tu...huhu...ade 1 kali tu...makan kt 1 tmpt ni...bole la...xde la sdp sgt...time bratur nk byr harge mknn, usha2 la jap kitchen die (dari jauh jela..)..hm...agak terpanjat gak la bile tgok cm de org cine..siap pki subang lg...ntah la...dlm ati mule terdetik "tadi aku mkn bce bismillah x??" huhuhu....

ape lg ek...psl kwn2....kwn2 pon kdg2 leh jd lwn...ske gak tgok mcm2 org ngn mcm2 ragam....mest akan ade konflik dlm diri kite..."boleh ke aku share problems ngan si x ni?".."die ikhlas ke dgr citer aku ni?".."boleh caye ke ngan pe yg die ckp kt aku?"...mcm2 la..even we feel dat we are close to dat person and we trust them pon kdg2, depa duk backstab kite..sbb ape ye...betul x kalo aku ckp sbb kdg2, kite pon wat cm2 kt kwn kite tanpe kite sdr...but, some people do that 2 survive...need to build many connections with others....nk pulun...pe lg...haaaa.....selfish...wat sesuatu tuk kepentingn sendiri....

sombong...angkuh....pe hak org nk ckp begitu kalo die x mengenali org tu....don't judge a book by its cover...please la jgn nk compare2 kn dis person ngn dat person....xsemua org mempunyai sifat yg same...bile org tu senyap je ckp sombong...cube la pk positif ckit...mebi org tu ade mslh ke...sakit ke...xde mood ke...suke suki je ckp die sombong....pas2 spread the story to others....memg xde koje....betul x??? for me..biarlah kate org tu...smpi bile2 pon xkn abes....

ase cm tu je kot tuk pagi yg masih sunyi...memandangkn perut ni da ok....maka...marilah kite berangkat tido...so, bkn nk membebel bkn nk merapu...just want to share coz i care~

~ kedamaian itu adalah 1 nikmat dr tuhan....carilah ia~

takut??!!

ape yang kite takut??? hmmmm.....
mse dak2 kite disogokkan ngan cter psl momok...antu....bunian....
haha...teringt mse kecik2...mak ckp, kalo men sorok2 lewat ptg nt kene sorok ngn antu susu or te***...huhu...
takut kne marah ngn ckgu kalo xsiap keje skola...takut ngan abah kalo balik maen lambat...kalo terleka jage adek...mcm2 takut ade....lg 1...mse kne g kdai mlm2...nek basikal...sorg2...pergh...dgn kiri kanan jln de pokok besar xhingat... kdg2, lampu jln xde or cm ala2 lampu disko...dlm ati..tuhan jela tau n of course la pecut tahap maksima..hak3...tp..tu mse kecik2 la...

tp kn...taw x pe yg perlu di takutkn skg ni??? freemason.. yahudi..&..sume yg menyesatkn....


kat Malaysia pon da ade unsur2 freemason ni....cube bygkn..brape rmi org yg tengok ajl ni...
ade gak bangunan tuk freemason ni kt Malaysia.....

freemasonry....or freemason=disambiguation..... in malay=penyahtaksaan

ape yg bole di share kn kt cni...
ade bbrpe unsur freemason...lantai petak2 black n white...1 eye with a pyramid....lady in red...
jge2 gak kalo dgr lagu n tgok video artis2 barat.....kdg2, lirik yg digunakan ade diselitkn unsur2 yg bole merosakkn...xtau la cmne kalo dak2 kecik siap hafal lg diorgnye lirik....
emm....byk lg la....kalo rjin,...korg search la video the arrival kt youtube....byk yg bole kte discover kt ctu...

pe yg nk share kt cni psl kte perlu takut ngn bende2 yg boleh menyesatkn kite secare direct or yg lbey menakutkn lg dgn care indirect....yg mne kite xsedar pon kte sdg mengikutinye dan menyokongnye secare perlahan2....Ya Allah...mintak dijauhkn....

papepun...yg penting, kte wat ape yg betul dan berada di landasan yg betul...
just sharing the idea of this thing so that kte berjage2 dlm mengharungi dunia yg semakin moden ni...

mebi next tyme i'll try to share some pictures....video....or any info bout this thing.... wallahualam....kalo ade yg tersilap, harap maaf....sharing is caring...cuz i care~ ^^.....u??

Ramadhan

Indahnya Ramadhan....cube lihat, ape yg berlaku mse bulan Ramadhan yg mulia ni...

senaraikn ape yg rmi muslim/ org islam buat time bulan puase ni:
1. solat terawih & witir....slalunye time bulan lain, jrg nk buat solat sunat ni...
2. selalunye kalau terawih mesti ramai yg solat isyak berjemaah kn..& yg berbuka kt masjid / surau, solat maghrib berjemaah gak.kt sini dptlah menambahkn pahala solat berjemaah...
3. bersedekah. ade katering dr restoran yg membekalkan juadah berbuka kt masjid & surau..jiran2 tetangge saling memberi sedikit makanan berbuka puase...org islam itu sendiri yg wajib menunaikan zakat fitrah...
4. berjimat. berjimat ke?? hm...bagi sesetengah org, bulan puase ni la boleh save duit sikit...iyela..duit mkn utk mlm shj...bg yg masak sendiri tu of course la lg jimat...tp, sedih bile tgok org yg tamak & membazir...haila saudara & saudari...puase ni sebulan...baikla dr membazir tu bersedekah..
5. bersabar. .semua kita ni memg penyabar org nye..betul x??  sng citer, sabar time tggu waktu berbuka...so, applykn la sifat anda tu mse que tuk byr bil, bli mknn,..n so on....

rase mcm byk lg perkare baik yg kite buat mse bulan Ramadhan ni....wallahualam...
kita sebenarnye mampu untuk memberi komitmen pada agama kita, iaitu Islam...cume nikmatnye rase lebih indah & meriah bile tibanya Ramadhan....papepun, ikhlaskan hati...

Ramadhan bakal meninggalkn kita....detik2 ramadhan yg terakhir ni...sama2 kita renung2kn...indahnya Ramadhan ini...bknnye syoknye nk raye....betullah kate mak..bulan puase lg seronok dr raye...

blog medium alternatif luahkan rase & cetuskan idea??

hm....just trying to write a blog....memang da lme dgr psl blog ni...dr zaman skola dlu lg.....but....xtaw la...mebi bile da sibuk ngan hal2 dunia ni...kdg2, terdetik kt hati nk share something with others....hopefully dpt membantu meningktkn kualiti dri~ ^^